“Where should I start? Everyone has this one life. It’s a fact. Regardless of what you believe we have never seen someone rise from the dead. One chance. One shot. And I blew it. I had this one life; the community has had this one life and I took advantage of the system. Now, people, who also had their one shot at life no longer have a chance because of me but I still draw breath. I can still change the future. Redemption. I know there’s a lot of talk about the town of what I am capable of. The things I did. I did a lot of things are still unknown to all of you. Only to myself. You see, I did do some of the heinous acts, for that I am guilty of but there was an accomplice and if you strike me down today, that accomplice will not receive justice. Just let me live. Just a few days longer. Help me make everything right before I go. Not everyone knows my story. What I have been through. I can’t just be left aside while others pick up the pieces. I mean something to a lot of people. You expect them to just pick up the pieces of what’s left? This is already devastating to friends and family on both sides. This is devastating to the community. Your families won’t get justice and will never get justice if you let this happen!”
“Four minutes.”
“After everything is said and done, I guess I want to offer my condolences to those I have wronged. I remember a time in which I was young and I killed the family pet. It devastated my parents. It destroyed my siblings and my grandmother and…and. That damn dog had a full life ahead of it and the whole world should have known from that minute what I would do in the future. Just some twisted experiment I conducted. It doesn’t matter. What does matter was this was the start of this big…mess. My parents forgave me, in which they shouldn’t of. They didn’t have all the facts. I withheld the facts from them and I was let off scot-free. I admitted to my sister what actually happened. She knew something was wrong with me and I never faced the consequences. I would want to thank her for hoping for the best but here I am. I want to apologize to my sister, my brother, my parents, and the rest of my family. They had such high hopes for me. They turned their back on what I was and believed I had potential. I guess I did, from one point or another. I can’t say I never did a good deed. I probably did but that’s besides the point. I am not at trial for what I did good. I am at trial for my past sins.”
“Three minutes.”
“As God as my witness I tried to push back all my cravings. The uncontrollable itch at the back of my neck. The cold sweat on my brow. It was like an addiction. Trying to get a fix every week. Searching the corners of my mind for some reprieve. At one point I found God. Asked for forgiveness. Promised that I would never touch another soul with malicious intent. And I took to that promise for a long time but just like any addiction. You must fight it off until your last breath. Once you get the feeling of adrenaline in your veins its hard to look the other way. None of you can say you never had a vice. Maybe something that didn’t affect another human being. For that I am guilty. I took no consideration of human life. I did not consider to what those would have thought of me. I told God that I would not hurt another soul and I kept to that promise. I turned a new life. I helped those who were in need. I was sober for such a long time but that damn dog. Haunting me with disrespectful gaze, of what I done to him. I slipped. That much you know, and all my past sins were brought to the attention of my friends, family, and community. I would like to say to God, I am sorry for what I have done. I tried my best, and may swift judgment be on my side.”
“Two minutes.”
“To the families that I had wronged. I am sorry for the pain that I have caused. To take away your sons and daughters and husbands and wives. They all had something. Each and every one of them. I didn’t see it then, in the moment but I see it now. To the Fitzgerald’s. I am sorry about your daughter. To the Scott’s. I am sorry about your mother. To the Way’s I am sorry about both your children, they were taken too soon. I am sorry to those family pets and those vagrants near the highway. I did not consider the value of a soul in my transgressions. I did not consider anything about any of my victims as I watched the life die from their eyes. I see the value of a soul now. And not just human souls but every soul of every living animal. I hope that in the next life the heavy weight of my soul will be weighed against to those I had wronged. I used the county as my personal playground and now that it has caught up to me, I realize that I do not deserve redemption but that does not mean your family has died in vain! I have information the police I can use. Names and places of accomplices and those who are yet to be recovered! I did not act alone and never had. I had apprentices that I helped hone their craft. I took them under my wing! I…I…”
“One minute.”
“There is so much to say, and not enough time to say it. I want to make things right. I need to make things right! You are all looking at me as if I have nothing else to offer to the table. I do. If…if… you would just listen! Listen to what I have to say! Hear me out. There are killers among you. They are in the stands! They can be your neighbors, your children, your ex-husband! They are people you know intimately and there is a much bigger conspiracy that is a part of this town than you think! Just think of the consequences! If you let me die you will never know who is a part of this. More people will die. I am not solely capable of the carnage that has unfolded!”
“Thirty seconds.”
“I have names! Places! I know where they live, I know their faces. Just listen to me Goddamnit. There is so much more at stake here. There are many faces to this whole conspiracy. I…I…I am willing to cooperate and give everyone up! Just let me see the sun again. Just one more day!”
“Fifteen.”
“Don’t let this all be in vain. You can’t let them do this to me. There is so much more. I am just the tip of the iceberg.”
“Ten.”
“There is so much more. I know there’s more than this. This is not just the end. You’ll all regret this decision!”
“Five.”
“There is more to life…”
“Four.”
“than slavery.”
“Three.”
“There is more to life.”
“Two.”
“than killing.”
“One.”
“Goodbye.”
